And I'm just feeling crappy about myself.
I'm afraid of losing weight. What if I lose all this weight & am still shy? Still can't get any friends? Still can't find a boyfriend? I can blame all of it on my weight right now. If I can't blame it on my weight anymore, then it must be ME. It must mean that no one wants to be friends with ME because of ME. Not because I'm fat.
So how can I change myself into a person that people want to be friends with?